Oh happy day!

Well, let me tell you, today has been 100 times better than yesterday. Yesterday was just one of those days. I don't know why, but yesterday was just a hard day. I felt like I was doing nothing right and I had gained a little bit of weight in one day (I denounced my earlier anouncement that I would never make a dessert again, and Sunday I made a delicious Zucchini Chocolate cake [It was for some company we had for dinner] with which I put apple sauce in instead of oil to make it a little more healthy, and I ended up sneaking A LOT the rest of the day, which is normally what I do with dessert when it is in the house, then I end up feeling gross and sick, and although it was amazing and very tasty I shoud not have done it), and so felt disgusted with myself yesterday morning. I promptly called Scott (very soon after I weighed myself, weighing TWO more pounds than I had the DAY BEFORE) and told him I was going to bring the rest to his work so the cake would not be in our house any longer. I put the baby in the carseat fast-like grabbed the cake and left. I was in pajamas (at least I had put a bra on!) but I did not care. I wanted the cake out of my sight. I am very proud of myself. It was like I was having a battle in my head: "Oh, that cake is so good!" "But I GAINED WEIGHT!" "You got to live a little, eat more cake! It is SO TASTY!" "I know, but is it really worth it?" Luckily the angel on my should won out over the devil and I gave the rest of the cake away. I was very careful for the rest of the day with what I ate and this morning I was back to the weight that I was on Sunday, THANK GOODNESS!

So, the knowledge that I did better yesterday with eating made me feel better today. My house is a disaster but I had to decide between finishing my chores or doing homework, and finishing my homework is a little more pressing. So I did homework and for some balance in the day (and for some healthy relaxing time [of which all women must have]), I went shopping with a good friend of mine, which is always welcome and was very fun.

Anyway, good day. It is a MUCH happier day. Although it is not fun to make mistakes I certainly learn a lot from them! I am making the changes needed to lose weight. The weight is now just continually coming off (slowly, but its happening!). Today when I was out I actually felt pretty and......dare I say it.........a little sexy. So, I definitely notice a difference and I feel great. The key is eating healthily (which I am pretty proud about) and exercising. That is it. Easier said then done, I know, but not impossible!

P.S. Sorry for the LONG post!