Being Honest

There have been times since I have had this blog that I have not written when I gained weight one week or did not lose anything another week. But, I did pledge to be honest on my blog, especially when it comes to my weight. So, although I am VERY MAD right now about this and I don't understand why it happened, I don't have good news about my weight. When I stepped on the scale I weighed 150. ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY! That is 7 pounds more than I weighed last week. This is not fair! I was completely confident that I would lose more this week. But no, I had to gain. I worked out harder this week than I ever had. I ate healthy. I don't know why I gained weight. There is no reason for it. There was a few times when I defiated from the diet a little, but I ate healthy and I ate till I was full. I did not overeat. Gosh! I am just so disgusted with myself! I should just walk into weigh-in day without any expectations because you can get your heart broken if you expect too much! I don't know what to do differently, because with the Jillian Michaels program it has me eating cheese, and as I have figured out that is not a good idea. If I want headaches all of the time than it would be fine, but I don't. I don't know what to do to change. Why did I have to gain 7 pounds this week? It just busts my bubble! It would have been better I think if I lost only four last week and stayed the same this week. Gaining is the whole thing I am working against.

Okay, enough complaining, I will just have to try harder this week. That's the end of it. I am scared to death for next Thursday. I need to come up with a game plan so I don't gain anymore because of thanksgiving. I will not let these holidays thwart my weightloss. I just have to figure out how to do it and obviously I have to get better at it...