worries

This week it seems like I have almost had too much time to think- to think about life, to think about the what will happens, and the how will I handle this when it comes, and the am I prepared for this? What am I going to do when school finishes in three months? Am I going to fill my time with good things instead of watching tv all day? How am I going to teach my daughter and make sure she learns and grows so she is rpepared when she gets old enough to go to school. I don't feel qualified to do that! I don't feel like I know how to teach that kind of stuff. What do I teach a 1 year old? How do I teach it? Then there is the worries of whether I am spending enough time playing with her and doing those things. I feel so guilty doing my school work instead of spending time with her. I feel like the days just fly by, and that I do too little with her, and too much for me. Then there are the worries about whether I am doing enough for Scott, or enough for the other members of my family, or my friends. Am I serving enough? Am I treating others with respect? I feel bad when I don't smile to someone when they seem in a bad mood or whatever. Just worried. I am sure you get like that sometimes. I'm worried about finishing my goals. I am tired of this whole weigthtloss thing. Tired of counting calories. Tired of worrying about it. I want to go a week without worrying about it. I will still eat healthy, but i just don't want to worry about the calories. just make sure I eat my fruits and veggies.

Anyway, sorry, just got a lot on my mind. I really have had a great day, just sometimes ya get to thinking, you know?